If it doesn't interest me and doesn't challenge me, I lose it. At high school I was challenged, had lots of competition, and achieved top 5 places in virtually every subject. I loved it to bits, I would go back there gladly. ^^ And I'm glad that wherever I go I seem to spark debate lol. It's fun!
But university, it's just GAH. Yes, I know you guys have to pay for college, and I do feel like an ass abusing the system here when you guys have such hardships and for that I do apologize if I sounded arrogant, but it's just so stupid. Sitting there for lectures every week, in the science field you learn the EXACT same things OVER AND OVER just in more detail, you can grab the entire textbook and memorize the entire coursework over 3 days max.
Social development? I develop myself all the time, I really can deal with virtually anyone and I purposely make my life hard to test myself, I go out constantly, I learn all the time, make new friends whenever possible, but I really can't find anything challenging. That's why I am so undecesive about where the hell I am going in life.
And then at the end of it, you get a full-time job with decent income to do what? It's just a fallacy to have lots of money, I already know I don't care about money. It's like a trap, that you have to have this by this age, or that by another. People forget that you have to live life as well, and honestly, you limit yourself.
I just want a job I enjoy and where I find happiness. I want to be experienced in life, not wishing I had done this or that. That is what I care about most, just to be happy, and so I'm exploring alternatives, one of which being poker. It would definitely give me the money so I wouldn't have to worry about things, but well, I won't kill myself if it won't work out.
Scuba diving is therefore one of the options, it would be a 3 month course to be an instructor, and it's heaps of fun.
But you guys saying no is a huge incentive, generally when people say I can't do things I push myself to prove them wrong, like moving to another state to be with a girl lol. ^^
As for today, sorry Roy, I only have 3 hands for you.
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I achieved my goal today, +$20 on 2c/5c, 9-tabling the 6-max, despite my $10 loss in the morning. I''ve raised my aggression levels for you about 75%, but I think it's still weak. I am stealing 7c blinds now and cbing for steals in position, so I feel it has improved my game slightly.
Talk to you later about my stats perhaps, 2.5k hands isn't a large sample though so meh.
Love to all!
I like this forum, just because I can make long posts about my life and help me rethink things. I'm going to like it a lot.