HeyJournal,

Well didnt post yesterday, I was tired and not in the mood... but it wasnt to bad of a day. Kinda lonely to be honest, had a whole bunch of classes in a row, didnt know n e one in them but no biggie u pretty much have to listen n e ways. Had comp sci, philo, and business class which was pretty sweet actually. Came home afterwards and didnt do anything so yesterday was a massive writeoff. I did actually read and finish my first stock trading book, so that was sweet I know some more things now.

Today... it was fucking cold today. Unreal cold. I almost died walking the 5 min across campus. I had early class and that wasnt 2 bad, my stats class was actually kinda cool for the first time ever... but im not to optimistic on how long thats gonna last. After class I had to meet my ex to exchange books cause we had some matching classes from this to last semester and its stupid it buy 150 dollar new books so we were gonna trade, cept I left mine at home. No big deal, but she looked really disappointed and I felt really fucking stupid after that, so it kinda reinforced that Im glad Im out of the relationship.. i mean it was just a stupid mistake, no need for her to make me feeeeeel like that. Maybe she didnt mean too. Im probabley just imagining things, and im the one whos demeaning and shit but wateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeever..... after that I bought some books, got a really good workout done.. and as I was leaving I saw girl A (refer to earlier post) which was unreal and made my day a gazillion times better. We just talked and I walked her to her res... and it was good to see her. Actually reallly made me happy so that was a bonus. Tonite I have to go and work a fundraiser at a casino... I basically have to count chips from 10 at night to 3 in the morn which is fucking gay cause tomorrow I have an intense workout...5 hours of class... and then a 2 hour lab at night and no real time inbetween so Im gonna be really tired but i have to do cause it makes money for the team... and buys plane tickets and bus rides and gear so thats good for us. Ive also been into Linkin Park a lot lately whcih is cooo but their music is kinda depressing/screaming about stuff so maybe thats influencing my mood. Just a thought. LP is pretty good though. N e ways pce. Out.

Well its been a week since I last updated here... nothing much to report, school is busy and shit. I got deep in a couple tournies, mostly the 3 dollar rebuy and the 10 dollar 15k guarantee but I havent been able to close when we get down to the last 90 or so. I consider this getting deep cause with 2k plus fields surviving down to the top 100 is a feat in itself. I dunno why, but I just get a little nervous, and become passive, or get hyperaggressive.. and try a crazy steal one to many times. The sad reality of these tournaments, is that somewhere in the closing stretch it comes to winning a crucial coinflip ... or a 60/40. The last final table I made was last Monday, a 5 dollar 1000 person field.. .and was about 4th in chips. I limp UTG with AKsoooooooted... some guy raises from the button and I reshove.. he/she calls and shows QJ and I brick out. Odds are this is probs my fault cause I could have just raised and maybe the QJ gets tossed(though I doubt it...) but w/e one of these days I shall have a decent cash. Holla.