My neteller deposit finally went through today. In my triumphant return to playing poker, I managed to lose 5 stacks. I hate poker. I hate it. I hope it dies. I went from +$8k for the month to -$5k. Fuck. I'm quickly approaching my biggest ever downswing.

I wasn't down much for quite a while, then after a long time I managed to battle to being up almost $800. Then I took a REALLY vicious beat in a huge pot (KQ vs. AQ on a 9TJ flop we put in $200, turn was a T, check check, he rivered his miracle K and I paid off a huge river bet).

After this Pokerstars REALLY laughed at me. They set me up with like 3 cold decks and I dropped a stack in 3 out of my last like 20 hands.

I got it all in on the flop or turn today with a flush draw or pair+ flush draw or flush draw + straight draw like 6 times and didn't win any.

So I waited a week for this $4000 deposit, and I've blown through over half of it in my first session.

It sure is hard to get myself excited to keep playing this game sometimes.

Just had a pretty good session.

nicely done... you have an onlike BR now.... maybe.

what did you do on the list for funding (if you don't mind me asking)?

I borrowed.