Attention - semi-serious post follows, containing actual honesty and openness. Prepare appropriate level of merciless mocking.
I was raised a Christian, and went to church essentially every Sunday until I was about 16. At this age I was finally fed up with all of the politics and closed-mindedness of my particular congregation, and with the religion in general. I had trouble with the carrot and stick ideas of heaven and hell, of a religion based on - to quote David Reese of
www.mnftiu.cc - which is hilarious by the way - "A vengeful being that rewards you in the afterlife?". Anyway, I'm not trying to shit on anybody's religion, but it wasn't working for me, and still doesn't.
So the more I thought about it, the more I came to the conclusion that the only things that matter are what you decide matter. And I don't think these have to be earth shattering things, either. If having a big SUV and a nice house in the suburbs matters to you, then I guess thats cool.
In my life, the things that have really mattered have been spending time with people that I think are really interesting and fun to be around. Other things that have been important to me include having enough money to support myself, which I am just scraping by with at the moment, and playing music.
I just talked to one of my best friends, and we are thinking of putting all of these things together sometime in the nearish future, and heading on a music roadtrip. The idea would be to just hop into the Subaru with a few changes of clothes, a few guitars and a bass, and go busk/play bars/whatever and see where life takes us. I will have a bit of money saved up by then, and hopefully internet poker won't be totally fucked so I can still make a bit from that to keep us in whiskey and beer.
I honestly can't think of anything I would rather do, so I am going to put everything I've got into making this happen. I figure maybe take off in either August for a couple months, or wait until next Spring.
I wonder if I am too old to be screwing around like this? I guess if I don't feel like I'm too old for it, then it doesn't matter.
Anyway.
Bankroll =
$1269
March =
$180
Moving up to 50NL at 1500
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