Let's start off with a quotation:
"During the first few years of my poker-playing career, I played almost entirely in home games that were almost entirely loose and reckless. All I had to do to win was play tight, which I had learned how to do. The trouble was, I had also learned how to tilt.
I was a great tilter. I knew all the different kinds. I could do steaming tilt, simmering tilt, too loose tilt, too tight tilt, too aggressive tilt, too passive tilt, playing too high tilt, playing too long tilt, playing too tired tilt, entitlement tilt, annoyed tilt, injustice tilt, frustration tilt, sloppy tilt, revenge tilt, underfunded tilt, overfunded tilt, shame tilt, distracted tilt, scared tilt, envy tilt, this-is-the-worst-pizza-I've-ever-had tilt, I-just-got-showed-a-bluff tilt, and of course, there's the classics: I-gotta-get-even tilt, and I-only-have-so-much-time-to-lose-this-money tilt, also known as demolition tilt.
I'd tilt, and I'd look back on my tiltings, and I started seeing cycles, and then cycles within the cycles, and before long, I started to see my entire poker future as a ceaseless fluctuation between tight and tilt. I figured if I ever went broke at poker, it wouldn't be because my best wasn't good enough to keep me afloat. It'd be because my worst was bad enough to sink me." -- Tommy Angelo
This is probably the roughest day I've had card wise. May be the roughest money-wise as well, but perhaps not. Imagine the worst possible run of cards....well, I can imagine worse than I had, so I guess this is less bad than the worst possible. At any rate I'm running like complete shit. I played for an hour at the limit tables and got my ass handed to me over and over. I played 200NL tonight and had a very nice session going until this hand:
I have
in LP and limp in behind some other limpers. Flop comes:
Yahtzee! Long story short other limper has A7o and doubles through me for $211. That was something akin to a swift kick to my gut. I walked from the tables shortly thereafter. Lost $85 over 145 hands. Do the math, I had a nice session going.
When something like this happens either you handle it and move on or you just stay away until you do. That's what you are supposed to do. I didn't do either of these. I decided to play more limit poker at UB and ran about as bad as one can run at limit. Dropped $31 playing HU cause this lucksack LAGTARD had to catch every fucking river and he managed to pick up AA twice while I caught top pair. HIts just kept on coming in the FR games. With bonus cushioning the blow, I lost $153 today at .50/1 and 1/2. I would really like to attribute it all to bad beats and bad luck and cold decks, but I can't. A man can only take so much till tilt sets in and its spew time. The only good thing is that I was playing limit poker.
I'm not sure if I'm going to play tomorrow. I'm not sure how I'm going to react to more of this shit. I can form all the best intentions and if I'm cold decked 30 hands in I may go ballistic. Fvck! I'm gonna go cry my self to sleep.