Hi, my name is Jacky. I started playing poker right when i turned 18. It is one year later and i am going no where playing online. That is why i decided to make my own journal and hopefully that would keep me on track. So far, i have lost about $2000 dollars in poker, that for me is a lot of money because i am a student. The problem with my game is not how i play because i have been winning but then losing it all because of my lack of patience and self control. I have been up $1000 but when things get just a little tough for me, lets say lose $100 dollars i decide that i have to win it back by playing levels that are way too high for my bankroll. That is why i turn to livepokerforum to look for guidance and hopefully i can achieve some of the financial goals i set for myself.

Well lets get down to business. I'm going to play on Ultimate Bet. I am going to make a deposit of $750 and start at the 25nl 6 max tables. I have no plans to withdraw money as of yet because i do still have a job but i do plan on moving up the limits when i get x25 BB. Wish me luck and see you at the tables.

Current BR: $750
Immediate Goal: $1000

Switch to Cake..... Now....

Yes. Google the name "starlite coast". Make a promise to yourself that you will never be him. If you can't stop yourself from playing overyour head and tilting off money, and $50 is important to you, then you need a new hobby. As for tilt control mechanisms, I'm the wrong guy to ask. It's kinda normal for me to get wasted and fire off a couple grand when I only have 5 or 6 thousand in my online accounts. But the money isn't that important to me. I never grinded my way up from the micro stakes like a lot of the guys did, so no real help there eather. . . . .

So yeah, google starlite coast. That's all I have to add.

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Read this. Mostly just the beginning the drama that comes after is entertaining but not really all that relevant to your situation. This is what you dont want to become, part of becoming a winning poker player is the ability to really see yourself. All the poker players that I know that cant control themselves or cant step back and see their own mistakes/ weakness's are all broke.

Tilt control is a tough thing, there is no secret to fixing it, there is not magic trick that keeps if from happening. The only thing you can do is learn what it takes for you to control yourself. I used to be a really bad tilter, I would play well take one bad beat and then lose it and play like a complete idiot for the rest of my session. The only thing that fixed it was time. As you play more and more you get used to taking bad beats, you get used to losing money when you are ahead and eventually you can shake it off.

Its kinda sad to say but some people like starlightcoast just shouldnt be playing poker. Most of us that have some gamble in us have done what you do we lose so we play outside of out bankroll or play some stupid table game to chase their loses. The trick is to learn from it and not do it over and over again to the point where you continually demolish your bankroll. Some people just don't have what it takes mentally to play poker and stay under control. I don't know if this you but if you cant control yourself to stay within your bankroll and you find yourself doing this over and over again then, this is something you might have to consider. Hopefully this doesnt come across as overly harsh that wasn't my intention.

Good luck

No wonder there are so many member journals from complete amatuers, there is so much support in these forums. Everyone is so helpful. Ok here is the thing, i will listen to everyone's advice to leave UB and will play on PS. Secondly, this is my last deposit on any kind of online poker site so this time i will definitly not tilt away my bankroll. I figured i don't think i need to anymore. Oh i also started playing 10-player tables just until i really get good at this game. The pace is much slower but it leaves more room for error i think as i am forced to play tighter. Well i have a question for you guys, when you guys multitable, you still play tight as a rock right? Hopefully i can continue to write in this journals for years to come. Thank you

UB Bankroll: $0
UB Bonus: Don't really care

October 6th 30 Min Session: +1.75
PS Bankroll: $96.75[/img]