I think one of the benefits of a anonymous internet forum is for catharsis - when I have this conversation with my wife or my live poker-playing friends they just tell me to sack up and go play 30-60 right now. But it feels good to be able to really post here to get an anoymous sounding board.
I think in my rambling I may have confused everyone a bit - I in no way need a coach to play 8-16 - when I play that game I know I am one of the best 1-2 players at the table- I just have this aversion to moving up that I can't explain. It may be that I am overestimating the players at the upper levels - like Mecos said - but I don't know. It was the fact that this particular low limti table was really pretty tough the other night that made me think that the upper levels are always this tough or something.
It is not the money - I don't want to get into my real job and I don't want to sound all cocky internet but it won't hurt me to lose 5K - but I have a real aversion to losing. All of the pro players I have met take it in stride but I just hate losing - I don't tilt at the table at ALL - but it affect my attitude towards the game away from the table.
I have a good buddy who got me into poker who I still play with - and then I got obsesed with learning and have passed him in ability. And we will talk about hands and I'll occasionally point out some fundamental flaw/idea "why didn't you raise for a free showdown there?" and a light bulb will go off that never occurred to him.
And I think I am wondering if there are similar lightbulbs that willl go off for me? Is there a point where there are no more ligjhtbulbs anymore? Because I don't feel like I have had a "lightbulb" in months.
How do you know when you reach that point? That is where the coach idea came from.
Pok - thanks for the link - i didn't realize that cactus was the same poster from 2+2. I should hook up with him here in vegas sometime.
Lee - thanks for the offer - I might PM you in the future - do you come out here several times a year? I am closing on a new house about 3 miles away so I am taking a break from any serious playing for about a month as I have to move Feb 15th and in the meantime put my existing house on the market. It is probably good timing as I want to take a break for a few weeks anyway.
The more I post in this thread it makes me think I need to listen to my wife and sack up, don;t give a shit about the competitive side of this and go play 30-60 at the Bellagio and just pop my cherry - Fuck it. Statistics: Posted by growlers — Sat Feb 03, 2007 3:18 am
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