Saturday, June 04, 2005


Poker Professionally - 6 months later
Current mood: thoughtful

I'm not sure if it's been 6 months for me yet...I don't really care. I'm bored out of my mind at 4:30 am and thought I'd put up some thoughts on this whole "career."

Professional Poker is quite a ride. Every hour, Every day, Every week, Every month; it's all one long emotional roller coaster. It's impossible to make it in this world if you can handle the swings. One temper tantrum a month could lose you thousands of dollars. As Phil Hellmuth states, "I'd take a good poker player over a great poker player anyday, if the great player is prone to tilt."

Luckily, I don't have that problem. I've always had a firm control over my stress and emotions. I also know when not to sit down at the virtual table. If I can't concentrate or I'm having a bad day..I will be doing something else. Something I enjoy, hopefully. Going to the strip club and spending my hard earned dollars, for example.

I don't play poker to relax. I don't play for the thrill. If I wanted thrill, I'd invite Halle Berry over for a game of twister. I'm certainly not addicted to poker. Matter of fact, I have to force myself to sit down at the table. It's a job to me and I suppose that's how it should be.

I play for the money, and for the competetion. It's good to know that you are better the other players. I pride myself in making less mistakes then my opponents. Big plays can be fun... but that's not what I'm interested in. I want the money. I need the money to live, to eat, to buy a big ass 52' HDTV (heh).

Bad beats bother me less and less everyday. I lose huge pots all the time, (especially this week.) But in the back of mind, I know I will win it all back.
The other day I lost $600 on a set over set on a 2/4 NL table. That's 1 1/2 buy-ins on one hand. I wasn't even phased. I just wrote my notes and moved on. Today I lost a $500 pot with AK vs AQ. A queen hit the river...3 outs was all he had. I grimaced, wrote my notes, and moved on.

I yell at people who bitch about luck and how "bad" other people are at the table. I want people to enjoy the game. Calling stations need to have fun, and people telling them that they are fish and suck; well that doesn't help anyone does it? Now you've went off and pissed off the fish. Which in turn pisses everyone else off, because there is less easy money to be won. I give the finger to all of you who call people "fish" at the table.

And to continue on this line of thinking; Josh Arieh can suck my 14' limp dick. That guy is a whiny little bitch that needs to learn a lesson. I hope to God he browes on BTP and sees this post one day.

Back to my job. I enjoy it. I like the poker community...I've met some great people online, some good new friends. I love the hours. I can work when I want to. I have time for the little things in life. Poker has improved my quality of life as well. The list goes on and on. Even if I don't enjoy the long sessions; how can I complain?! I have no right. This is a gift I've found and I'm trying my best to take full advantage. It only took me 2 or 3 years to get to this point

I hope everyone who read this gets something out of it. I'm not sure what the point of it all was. I guess the overriding theme is it's a great job...but has it dangers. There's a thin line between professionalism and addiction. A thin line between winners and losers. Which side are you on?



Currently listening:
Schumann: The 4 Symphonies

Sunday, June 05, 2005


Good week
Current mood: content

Well I finished the week in grand style. I made over my goal money-wise for the week...though only 15 hours instead of 20.

20 hours shouldn't be that tough...but it just gets harder and harder for me to sit down for long sessions.

I'd give you my money stats but I'm not posting them anymore. Damn me to hell if you wish

Today I started up huge in a half hour. Had a king high flush against a LAGs 10 high flush. That will double you up. Then sadly, I lost my stack on this hand with kings down:
forum/viewtopic.php?t=3825

Before the end of the two hours, I went down a lot..then back up..finally finished with a decent session. I was very happy with my play. I would have been a monster winner today if I had hit any sets or if my kings had held. ahhh well...next time

I just gave this advice to a poker friend of mine...it rings true in my ears. I'll post it on here so I can read it myself from time to time.

"Keep studying. Keep posting your opinions. Be objective about your play. Don't tilt. Play within your bankroll. And most important; stay optomistic.

Do all those things...and I'll see you playing beside me at the $10/$20NL game sooner then you think."

I like the fact that I stated I'll be playing $10/$20NL. What can I say? I've searched my feelings. I know it to be true.

(pitiful star wars reference. did you catch it?)

Currently watching:
Star Trek III - The Search for Spock (Special Edition)

Kenny
You know I have enjoyed reading your stuff for quite awhile...It has been fun reading about your climb up the ladder...
So here is my question/comment---Now I AM being a smartass here but serious too...
You say you have to REALLY WORK to get in 20 hours a week...WTF do you do the rest of the time?? If I had that much free time, it would be in trouble for sure LOL !!
Just curious...
B

Thanks for reading Bobby...and keep leaving comments! Makes me feel special.

To answer your question about spare time

...there is a lot of pornographic material on the internet that I am compelled to investigate.

Monday, June 06, 2005


Don't chase the damn fish away!
Current mood: cheerful

So far I've had two awesome days this week. I've almost met my goal in 5 hours. not bad kenny..not bad

Anyway..I had to share this chat that occured on my table. To understand it..you have to know that :

1.TAR1971 is a complete fish
2.The A3 they are talking about..they are making fun of TAR for calling an all-in with a gutshot draw.
3. My name is kgcrazy.

Enjoy! (I edited out all the results of hands so it would be an easier read):

[gimmy96]: chasing for inside st8
qbclay8: A3 normally wins in that situation
[gimmy96]: so u woulve called if u had a3?
qbclay8: no, i would have gone all in
qbclay8: lol
[gimmy96]: lol
TAR1971: you all should not talk kgcrazy is smokin and keeping his piehole shut
TAR1971: losers
qbclay8: i didnt know it was against the rules to talk in poker?
TAR1971: not just means u r a loser
qbclay8: lol
****At this point TAR1971 (the fish) leaves the table****
kgcrazy: way to go you *s
kgcrazy: you chased away free money
kgcrazy: good job
kgcrazy: next time shut up
****Couple of minutes go by****
kgcrazy: everyone's quiet now
qbclay8: sorry...i just cant stand dumb a ss donkey plays
velvet_ears: no...u love dumb ass donkey play..but u hate losing to them...i do as well...but let them stay..
velvet_ears: you always do the same * on every table you play qb. leave the damn fish alone.


I dunno...I just thought it was hilarous that the fish said I was smokin them...and then another guy at the table starting yelling at qb for driving him away. Funny stuff.

Nice Journal Kenny. I enjoy reading it.

I thought the same when I read Psychology of poker. It's a strange book. I think live players will benefit more from it.

And then one thing. I'm just curius... you said driving down to Atlantic city. Isnt that in NJ, and you live in NC...? I could be wrong here, just wanted to learn some geography

love the chat logs. gotta hate it when ppl tap the aquarium. i hate that so much. plus the generally annoying players who resort to 7th grade trash talking...very bizarre stuff in online poker.

today i saw one player berate another as being a sucker [meanwhile the sucker had 3x the buyin] then the self proclaimed expert rasied allin [like 80x the BB] preflop with 1 limper, and had ATs, lost to the JJ - rightfully so..... i love it when ppl calim expertise during a game...priceless.

solid journal kennyg, love this stuff.