I'm a therapist, of sorts... Lets have it, big boy...

Brave fellow, EP. I've known a few bisexuals...all I can say is, it must be really tough.

I have no idea how long I've been hiding all this. Everytime I think back a few years and realize "I was hiding it then", I find another time before then that I was hiding these feelings as well. I'm going through a really tough time right now and need a lot of help.

The best thing I've done is opened up with my family. I just had a long talk with my sister, who is a lesbian. My dad is a transexual, but I haven't had a long talk with him yet. Every day I open up to someone else and then I'm exhausted. I have to wait a little before I can talk with anyone else.

I don't even remember what it's like to feel "normal" anymore. I don't feel hungry anymore, I barely eat, I have tremendous difficulty falling asleep, I randomly have bouts of complete mania where I cannot stop thinking... I'm just a complete wreck right now. And I'm hitting another downswing with poker. But I need to make more money soon. I have less hours at my job than I expected and it won't be enough to support me these next few months, so I have to find another job, or step up my poker hours. I don't know.

Right now I'm crazily hyperactive again. I can't shutup my mind. I told like everything to my sister, but I'm still not okay.

Whoa, try to get some time in with a trained professional just to get some shit off your mind. Don't think you will be classified as being in the loony bin but sounds like shit is just piling on you mentally and you are about to explode. Stress creates more stress; poker is probably the last thing you need at this point try to step back and sort this shit out.

I know you love marijuana and im not sure if it contributes to these hyperactive bouts but it has with me in the past. I smoked way too much for about a month and got really paranoid and disordered(insomnia, overly emotional, lack of work). Its great for introspection but my 2 cents dictate that maybe u shud limit ur smoking to like 1ce a day? compared to several times? GL either way ull get through it.

Thanks for the support... I'll get through it.

It's extremely difficult to take you seriously here