I'M GAY!! I told Tom (my housemate) and he was all cool with it. I called my sister shortly after to tell her how happy I was. I'm finally back to me at full force again. I've revived some many passions, I've opened up tremendously, and I'm confident again. I am in such a great mood and tonight couldn't have turned out any better!!

I'm glad this has worked out so well. Now all you've got do do is leave those women alone.

I cleared the PokerRoom bonus today with AWESOME results!

SNGs: 175
Net: +1739
ROI: +30%
ITM: 40%
Hourly rate: $79/hr !!!!!!

I am so good at SNGs. F*ck being humble! I remember GreaterThanU referred to me as a "pro" in the IRC chat once... I should accept that title!

I read your journal from the beginning so I had more context on recent events.

Few observations-

1. You Love SNES, like way hard. Yet, im 99% sure you only use emulators, im kind've a purist and got my snes and nes still runnen.

2. At 1 point, you were totallyy into chicks. Well it was more like you were totally into getten laid.(the whole allison rachel maria paradox)

3. Your way sick at SNgs

With my poker winnings I'm finally buying more schmit:

Fixing up my car (driver's seat, rear defroster, passenger side mirror)
Modifying my car (adding a subwoofer and amp)
Bigger monitor? I haven't looked around much yet.

The past week I've been listening to Buckethead and Opeth a lot more. Damn, I love these guys. Dillinger Escape Plan hasn't felt like my favorite band for months now, but I still love them in their own way. I'm not sure who my favorite band is anymore, a lot of it is mood dependent or state dependent (cuz you know, when I'm in Cali, I listen to different music... yep...).

And finally... I demand to have the title "Professional Donk-n-Go'r" added! I'll PM Tetsuo and see what he says.

edit: I hope Tetsuo has a sense of humor:

Can you add the title "Professional Donk-n-Go'r" to my name? I will love you forever! Not that way...

yooo when ur not playing bodog with its max of 3 tables, whats ur average set of sngs consist of? anddddd how many sets you do a day on avg..... Just looking for ball park figures.

Meh. This is so surreal. I've still never recovered from the downswing since I started BoDog this week. Constantly losing to 1, 2, 4 outters, losing all the 80/20s and 70/30s, running into bigger hands (including KK v AA), etc. You know how the downswings go. I just finished clearing the bonus... and ended up losing $74. Nothing good to say there - made ITM 34%, an all-time low for me.

Bleh bleh bleh. On one hand, I want to redeposit back into PokerStars and 6-table there for a while and hope I don't run bad again. On the other hand, I'm really screwing myself over here academically. I need to pay more attention to my studies - a lot more. And I find it difficult to concentrate on anything school-wise after I've been downswinging for a while. I let it get to me way too much.

And once again I need to lessen my drug usage. Man am I horrible with self-control!