I did it for a while, too, and did see that it eventually would even out. I mean, there are also these sick (very pleasant phases) where you can't lose, too.
One question, though: For example, on hand 1 with set vs. draw, I can push the flop. Realistically, I think $17 stack with AJ would've called, but I'm not sure about weaker jacks and stuff--probably depends on whether the guy is any good at all. In any case, I like the call better. The result is the same except that with my call line, I feel like I have higher probability of keeping the 3rd guy in. The guy who's pounding is obviously going to call anyway.
But one thing about the equity tally: If I push, my equity looks great. If I play it the way I did, I'm the one calling from behind. I've gotta have odds to fill up, since the pot is around 75, and it's 17 to call, and I'm somewhat less than 3:1 given the J in the mix, but I'm certainly better than 4:1.
In any case, if you just figure it from the all-in, then I'm behind and have very little equity. And I wonder if having the tally in the back of your mind can ever adversely influence your play... ?
Like in this case, I look much better if I lose having pushed the flop, since at that point, I'm close to 3:1 favorite. But the way the hand goes, I'm 3+:1 underdog.
But yes, your right about its evening out. This run is just really frustrating when I feel like I'm actually finally getting at least a bit the hang of 6max but keep going way down--after a no doubt lucky start, then a run with some tough hands that I misplayed and went down noticeably, now a run where I just can't seem to win a big pot regardless of what I have. And, true, most of these are coinflips, but I really don't think you can survive in 6max if you don't get aggro with coinflips--and, yes, they may call. But you're supposed to win half of them... At the moment, I seem to be winning all of them as long as it's a $10 stack and losing all of them if it's a full stack or bigger.
It'll turn around, but I'm really eager to get back to the 100s, and certainly don't intend to do so until I have a solid amount of $ won at the 50s. So, it's a frustrating delay.