Monday, November 14, 2005


*MISSION 100 HOURS* Things are Going Great!
Current mood: content

I'm actually on a winning streak. I've now won for 5 straight sessions. Amazing after all the bad luck I had.

I've been going on some crazy swings though. My session tonight I started down $900 and at the end of 3 hours, was up $500. Couple of nights ago I started down $1200 and was up $300 after all was said and done. Too much of this crazy shit and I will have a heart attack. Of course, if my win rate stays where it is, I don't think I'll mind too much.

I just posted a bunch of hands on the BTP NL section if anyone cares.


I didn't meet my goal of 25 hours last week, but I did get 22.5 in. That's really good for me. I'm hoping to get 30 hours in this week, to make up for the first week of *MISSION 100 HOURS.* I'm not gonna play if I don't have my "A" game of course, but that always limits me.

I'm really starting to love poker. I know when I first started this journal that poker bored me and blah blah. Lately, I've become more and more interested on different strategies and I'm even watching it on TV again! I'm also 5 pages into my book for online poker. The future looks bright! I'm a lucky guy.

2/4 stats:
Sessions: 40
Time played: 116h 5m
Win Rate: $96.82/hr
Return Std.: $717.66 (2 buyin deviation per session. Forget about easy, fitful sleep anymore.)

Saturday, November 19, 2005


*MISSION 100 HOURS* I'm an idiot.
Current mood: okay

I've been putting in small wins left and right for the past week. I was kinda subdued about the fact I haven't put in a big win lately, but the small wins add up quickly.

Anyway, I really fucked up today. I've been trying to fix my sleeping schedule the last few days. I realized I was doing badly when I actually woke up at 7pm the other day. So anyway, I've been screwing with my hours, and ended up playing today when I was really tired. I wouldn't normally have played in this condition, but I want to get my 25 hours in. I'm so sick of coming up short.

I lost around $600 to pure tilt. It should have been an even session, but I really just lost it. I remember putting a guy all-in with A5 on a 652 flop, Reraising with 55 when the guy obviously had a higher pocket, Calling down a huge calling station that was betting big knowing I was beat. (that's a mortal sin.)

I knew I was on tilt too and I was damn tired. I thought I could handle it and I was wrong. I should have left at the first sign.

That being said my winrate for the month is still pretty decent. My hours are not. I've come to decide that 25 hours a week is just an impossible hill for me to climb.

25 hours may sound like nothing to most of you, and it sounds that way to me. But poker is so different then any other job. If I don't play at the top of my game, I might as well just throw the money down a toliet. My "A" game just isn't always there for me.

2/4 NL Stats
Win Rate: $90.27/hr
Sessions: 46
Time played: 128h 48m
Return Std.: $681.96 (deviation per session)

K
You know I like you and respect you, and I admire ANYONE who can grind out a living playing this game-but what the phuck is TILT?????????
Give yourself TWO dumb mistakes...if that happens, QUIT now...If you tilt, you really arent the best 100 or 200 NL player....
One of the reasons my journal is so boring is--- I may not be the best, but gawdammit, I never tilt....
If you know you do it, and it hurts, maybe NOT doing it will feel better...
GL buddy
B

I cna't use pokertracker with the sites I play, so it's a moot point.

Hey Kenny, if you are moving to 5-max, shouldn't you focus more on # of hands played rather than hours? Your going to see 20% or so more hands at a short-handed table so that's really like 20% more poker.

Just a though?