Rhound,

I think we are going through the same. Everytime I sit to play and have two hours, quad tabling and I am losing a lot just from the blinds, I start thinking about "how much I should be up"....that´s so stupid!!

I will forget about the money I "SHOULD" be making. Droqqa told me he stopped using PT because he was obsessing with win rates and other things and that was hurting his game. I know I am in that spot now. I will play the game and wont think about the money. This has to stop someday. Losing at the rate I have been or breaking even should allow me to make some money chasing bonus.

I will just forget about the results and play my hands the best I can. I think we should forget about the results and for how many hands you havent won or havent got a set. Those kind of things dont do any good to our game.

So as much as I said I was done playing for a while, Mitch talked me into playing my usual home game. The best news I can come up with is I broke even, actually I made $2. A winning session finally.

Hand 1: I have $40 villian starts the hand with $35. I have A10d, we are playing 6 handed so I raise from the button villian calls. Flop is 1045. He cheks I bet $5. He calls, turn is a 3 making two diamonds. He checks I bet $8. He calls, river is an A. I check, I put him on a busted club draw, he pushs, I call and he turns over 23o. For the fukn str8. Great why should today be any different than any other day.

Hand 2: I have $60 in front. I call a raise from the BB with A9h. MP calls also. Flop is A . I lead $8. MP raises to $20. PFR pushs for $35 total. I know MP is coming along for the ride and I pretty sure the case A flopped, I push too. Praying I have a live 11 outs. Preflop raisor has AQo, MP had A8. Turn is a heart I have the nuts, by some minor act of god one of the last 2 8's doesnt hit and I win a nice pot.

Hand 3: I call a raise from the button with 66, flop us 6710 raindow. I raise the flop to $15 get called by BB and MP. Turn is a brick, he checks I bet $25, he pushs for another $18. Ithat sinking feeling, this guy is a calling station. I still have to call for the pot odds. He of course called a raise with 89o, of course.

So I broke even pretty much. I really didnt enjoy playing in fact I was kind of happy to get out of there. I am going back to not playing poker, I have been happier and much less stressed the last week not playing. I am no longer listening to Mitch when he tries to talk me into playing. This kind of cemented the point that I really need a real break.

Rhound, I wonder if I ever had a winning streak of 14-20K hands at 7PTBB/100 MORE than my regular win rate....

Though hands. I decided I wont take any break at the moment. I have taken two for more than 15 days and they havent done it for me. I think I am playing good. I stepped back to NL$50 and two tables only. I did good yesterday. In fact, it was Acceptable, not good.

Hope you come back to win soon again.

Haha, I am back with a vengance. Ok so maybe not. I have been home sick for the last 4 days, there is only so much sleeping and playing PS2 I could take so I decided to play some low limit to pass the time. I played .5/$1 stud on party. It was fun, I was on vicodin and I suck at stud and these people made me look like a pro. I won $65 in maybe 3 hrs of stud. I am still not going back to playing for a little while but it was a fun way to pass the time.

As a side not there players are freakin terrible. I am far from a great stud player but even I know its time to fold your flush draw when your opponants has trips showing. I had split aces and kings and a gutshot str8 draw , my opponant has bet and raised every street with no pair showing and no card bigger than a J showing in his hand. I hit my boats Aces over on 7th think that maybe I just sucked out on his trips. I check raise 7th he just calls with one pair of wired 8's, huh ?????

Well the big money stud experiment is over. I played 98 hands at 2 tables and managed to win a mighty 1 hand. Then I realized why I was taking this break in the first place. Since I was annoyed and frusterated playing a .5/$1 stud game. I did manage to make a couple bucks in the process.

Since this is my personal journal along with my live poker journal I will place my rant here.

I focking HATE chemistry, I am a focking CPE major there is no freakin reason I should have to take chem. It has absolutly no relavent to my major, of course I am taking chem, I am in Revelle colllege at UCSD and their goal is well rounded scientist. FOCK that take a look around at my CS and EE class's well rounded my focking ass, since when are computer nerds well rounded? Maybe if we didnt have to spend 25 hrs a week in the computer lab for one damn class we might have time to be well rounded, but until then there is no suck thing as a well rounded CPE. Revelle can suck my ass. I have to take chem class designed for chem and bio people. I got to take a quiz in my chem class today which was kind of like getting sodamized by a a searingly hot cattle prod, the whole time I'm sitting there thinking its a good thing I'm getting well rounded. If by well rounded you mean pissed off and bitter, Revelle you have succeded. Ok rant complete sorry for anyone who actually read this.

What year are you Rhound? And what Chem class is this, I took Chem6A first quarter, hated it and now am looking towards being a Math/Econ major. Either that or philosophy, but I don't know what a philosophy major could do besides sit and think all day (which would be sweet, but it doesn't bring in the money.

Golden1, I guess I am considered a junior though because of the the stupid useless Revelle requirements I have two years left including the all important language fluency requiredment. It is 6a and the class really isnt crazy hard, except out TA goes out of his way to make the quiz's hard. I am taking it with Hoeger who everyone said was good but turns out to be one of the harder chem profs. What makes it worse is I really dont care, I want to get a passing grade and not look at chem ever again, that class is on the bottom of my priority list and wouldnt be that bad except my ECE and CSE class take huge chunks of time.

I think it is time to try out those new emoticons. Now I only have to figure out how to make it smaller.